When It Gets Hard To Pray

I have a friend who I haven’t seen in over a year who is going through an incredibly difficult season. I, like thousands of others, have been praying for him. I have been praying for complete healing. I have been praying for his family, and miracles. Mutual friends and online reports have given me nearly all of my information about the situation. Sometimes it has been hard to pray, but I’ve still prayed with audacity and expectancy.

Today, I read something that made it hard to pray. It’s not that I don’t know how or what to pray, but the audacious and expectant prayers are harder than ever today. It was just two little words in the update, but those two words nearly crippled me in prayer. Two small words that bring a sense of hopeless to a battle that has been filled with so much hope. Two words that make the future look grim.

“Hospice care”

I was frozen in my tracks. Those two words released a river of emotions. No other news up to this point has made it as hard to pray as those two words. “Cancer has returned,” brought more fervent prayers. “Inoperable tumor,” was another test of faith, but my prayers did not cease. But when I read those two words today, I felt lost. Those two words made it especially hard to pray.

But I cannot stop praying those hard prayers. I cannot back off from audaciously thanking God for healing that has not been realized in our physical world. I cannot lose hope because the type of care has moved from “prolonging life” to “quality of life.” It is hard to pray, but that does not mean that it is time to give up and move on.

So I will pray the hard prayers. With pain in my heart and tears in my eyes, I will continue to pray. I will persevere through discouragement and pray with audacity. I will pray with true expectancy.

I thank God for Freedom. His example of faith is one that I will forever remember. I believe that, by the blood of Jesus, Freedom’s body can and will be healed in this life. I believe, but help my unbelief. Let the love and power of Jesus Christ shine ever brighter. There are so many promises throughout the Word of God, and I pray that Freedom is given a hope and a future. I pray that he overcomes by the blood of The Lamb and the word of his testimony. I pray that even greater things are done here and now. With all the authority given to Jesus Christ, I pray for a completely renewed body. All things new. In the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

North Way Christian Community has been posting updates for continued prayer. Would you join me in prayer for Freedom?

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