First, let me thank all of you that have been praying for my father and my family.
My dad’s internal struggle (physical)…
We found out this weekend and Monday that dad has Burkitt’s Lymphoma (a type of Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma). From what I’ve read about this type of cancer, although it is very aggressive, it is also one of the most curable types. As soon as there is a bed available at Shadyside Hospital, he will be transferred there and be seen by one of the best doctors in treating this kind of cancer. Your continued prayers are appreciated more than I can express.
My internal struggle (emotional and spiritual)…
The tough thing for me is feeling helpless. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how I should be feeling. I need to be strong for my family, but I don’t know how. I know that God is in control, but… There’s that ‘but’ that keeps rolling around in my mind that I am having a tough time getting over. I don’t even know what comes after the ‘but’, but it’s there nonetheless.
All I know to do is pray, visit my dad, and let him know that I love him. Come to think of it, I don’t think I’ve ever actually told him I love him. I need to.
How do you do that? I feel like you seriously just read my thoughts! Praying and thinking and praying and thinking seem to be the theme! I really wish there was a way to turn of the thinking part. For me it seems to be the part that is bringing about the “but” in the whole equation. I know that God is in control and He knows exactly what we all are going through! He knows dad’s situation and his heart and I can only pray that this brings him closer to God! God’s love for us never fails and His strength is enough! Love you Tony and I’m so thankful to have a brother like you!