is a charm?
We have a new closing date… again. If anything, this has been a huge lesson in patience and trusting that God is in control. Our third attempt at a closing date is nearly a month later than the original date and over a week later than when we had to be out of our old apartment. I’ve joked around about being technically homeless for the past few days, but we’ve been blessed to be able to stay with my mom until we can move into the new house. There’s a lesson in patience for all of us as her house is now extremely crowded with us and all of our stuff.
I know a lot of people can sense my frustration. It’s not even about having to change the closing date again. It’s more about not being in control. Being stuck in a holding pattern should be my strong suit now that I’ve felt like that for so long in other parts of my life, but it’s not. I just want to move on, but I can’t because I’m not in control. Isn’t it supposed to be calming and a great feeling to know that God is in control? Instead, I feel like Jacob in Genesis 32, wrestling with God. I’m tired of waiting and being patient. I want my blessing now.
Talk about continuously feeling stuck…was noticing that I still feel that way, even though we are moving in a direction. Ugh.
I have been praying about this also and you know this is the first closing in 11 years that has had these types of hold ups….Everything that is out of my control for you has been compromised to some level. From slow bank officers (first offer), to title issues (seller), mortgage paper work (under writer)… I am sure we could add 10 other things to the list. My desire for you to be in your home, aspirates my confusion as to why and what could be different about this transaction. No other has been like this and I am sure no other will. I have felt Gods hand in this from the start, from the pre approvals to the location and now it is his timing on the move. I see this being a life lesson for both of us, I am not sales person just a guide in a transaction…Just like I am not the one who gives Grace, just a tool for His Purpose.
I value you both as friends and know God will be faithful in his blessings to you both…on to the next few days!!